After acquiring a student visa from England country, our first tension is about residency and, I cannot work there, how will I survive there? Two big matters with tensions in my life again come to hassle me.

England country one tense resolve

One of my tensions of residency that my mother fixes.  My mother arranged a residence for me in the England country as she has a lot of kinsfolk there. Finally, I arrived in England, where my second cousin lives with her husband and kids. My uncle also lives there. But the problem is that my college is in another city where my second cousin resides whereas my uncle lives in another that is about five hours away by bus and car. That way, I first lived with my cousin and then she settled on a rental room for me.

Three disparate residences in the England country

I lived for almost three months in England country. Some days with my cousin, a few weeks in a rented room, and a few weeks with my uncle. My life is spinning and playing with me. It is because sometimes I go to another city to attend classes for college while living in a rented place. Sometimes I live at my uncle’s house when I don’t have resources to eat and pay rent. Additionally, the landlord is impolite to me which I don’t accept. And very rarely do I live with my cousin as she has her personal life.

My low confidence

I stay at home which is tedious for me and sometimes boring too, as I do not have a TV, the internet, or a Smartphone to use social media or find my phone to watch any Asian shows. I don’t go outside because I am terrified of using transportation. This is because transport in Pak is dissimilar and a little hard from the European urban system. And I don’t have much self-assurance to travel. The people who live with me don’t assist me all the time. I have a buddy who always helps me with everything that is what I mostly, call him for support.

My fellows in the England country

I have some Pakistani friends and a few Indians as well. But the Indian boy is not good and few Pakistani boys are as well. They try to take benefit from me. I quickly discern because they don’t aid me whenever I request anything. Only a few Pakistanis assisted me with some important documents. Additionally, I am seeking a job as I am forbidden to work. But most of my friends don’t help me with that except a few. That is why, I do not like the people of England much.

My annoying house boss

I have a very rude house owner. They are a family of two couples. One of them has a baby another doesn’t. They don’t aid me with any single and simple thing. They don’t help me to find a job but they scare me, you are prohibited from working here if the police catch you, they will directly deport you. I was frightened of it because it was in the rules but now it is not like that. People live illegal lives with illicit work.

Such are the people of the UK, they always scare illegal people that they are not safe. They just wish I could leave their shelter too as soon as possible. They stated this several times to me. I sense a load on them that is why I moved to another city in England country, where my uncle resides. And they are happy that.

My uncle and his family

My uncle is a simpleton. He doesn’t bother me all but my aunt doesn’t grant me to stay with them as she has a handsome son and thinks I will try to mingle and marry him. That she doesn’t admit. She also sounds like I must choose another residence. It annoys me a lot. But I started living with her mother who lives the next door. With her sick and retired husband. I help her while doing house chores as she is an old lady.

Here I watch only TV because I don’t have a Smartphone at the time. I go outside with the two ladies my aunt and her mother. The rest I stay at home. I am thinking I may go to Europe life can be better there.

In England country, no one let me survive peacefully. The false perspective of people seems arrogant. Their haughtiness is that they are in England with British citizenship. They do not honor the Pakistani people. Life in the UK is like a whirligig just moving round and round and nothing to meet myself to settle there.